Sigur Rós - ''Hoppipolla''

Venture.

Naturally we have been talking about it quite a bit which has been good because I havent thought much about being a Venture this past summer. As time continues to move, I do in fact look forward to it more. Im looking forward to not knowing what is coming or what situations will arise or how they will play out. Im looking forward to seeing people in this environment and knowing some of the similar feelings of the Lord working through heart issues. Im looking forward to being forced to be honest and encouraged to live the way my heart wants to, even though I dont always follow through. Im tired of the word "excited" because I sometimes remember that people use it to describe the kind of person who is simply over caffinated. I dont mean that when I say it - anticipated expectation.

Im reading through the end of "Under the Overpass" again and they describe this church they go to that is seemingly completely missing Jesus' point by seperating worship and following Scripture. If it had been any other day, I dont think it would strike me the way it did - but on this specific day, we attended a church here that bothered me at a depth that surprised me. "We cant confuse our purpose" was the hang up in the book, and today I didnt feel like the church was missing the purpose of the large scale church. But there were some things I was just very unfamiliar with, like the Wesminster Catechism, benadictions, recital and such. Words.

I think as a blanket concern - my heart was disturbed. Not by many specifics, but by the whole experience. I dont know where to put it in my mind because it wasnt too far off what I know, but it was simultaneously a drastic difference to anything Ive been exposed to. I am very aware that my heart was disengaged and throughout the service I was trying not to be, praying that God could open my heart and teach me something that had some kind of peace attached to it. But I didnt feel any kind of peace until at least an hour after we left. I have no idea if my unrest even had anything to do with the church because MY heart was not right. Or, is it that my heart wasnt right because of the unrest I felt? It was only when we sat down and the service began that I felt shifty.

Its strange to me how different denominations are sometimes. I forget that - because if I were too see them fellowshiping, I would say they were no different than any other church I have considered as really solid. Lord I think its easy to get caught up in catechisms and religion and I ask that you keep emphasizing relationship as the focus on a continual basis.