Song for Mia by Lizz Wright.
Throughout the last couple of years, my moms mother has been in a rollercoaster of health issues, and we were told she would die before January of last year. She has fought longer and harder than any person her age or condition should, and by the LORD's grace, has been given much more time than she was ever "supposed" to have. The LORD has known however, that we needed her still, and has granted us with more time. Time for which I personally have been so grateful. Growing up, Grandma was always very headstrong, she had a way she wanted to do things, and so did I - you can imagine where that would lead. For so many reasons however, in the last 6 years or so, we have both changed. In the last 3 years in particular, our relationship has taken a sweet turn; we have often sat for long periods of time over coffee and talked about her and Grandpa and memories and Rocky and I. She loves Rocky so much.
I have so much treasured her friendship.
She has been on Dialysis, going three times a week, for the last month and a half or so, and while I was talking to her yesterday morning, she explained to me that she had made the decision to no longer continue with the procedure. Dialysis is meant to sustain her until she dies, and when she stops we were told it would be about 2 weeks before her organs failed.
I have been so relieved to know that she is finally done with hospitals, finally done with medications, finally done with this world and so ready to be with Jesus and peacefully resolved to leave. This sounds incredibly "out there" but I had a dream a while back that to me, symbolized exactly what I have been feeling concerning Grandmas procedures and consistant dependency on hospitals. She was standing on the waters edge, beautiful, clean, refreshing, purifying water; being held back by tubes and needles. And I am so excited that she is finally putting her feet in.
Instead of two weeks, we are looking at more like days. I wrote Grandma a letter, and I was originally going to send it to her, but as things are, it doesnt look like we have time. I called to read it to her this morning and she hasnt gotten out of bed yet. My mom said that she is already starting to fade. So with a heavy yet rejoicing heart I lift my hands, open and cut and thank you Father, for the life of Betty Meyer, 83, who has loved and served you with her life. In Japan for 38 years, faithfully with her husband, raising her 5 children - and continuing into her grandchildren; the service and depth of faith she has shown has so deeply impacted those around her, that the reality of her pending death will still be a shock, even though we know full well its coming.
Dear Grandma,
I was going to send this to you, but I dont think we have the time. Its hard to know exactly what to say, but I know there are things I would want you to hear from me before you go into glory. Oh that seems almost unbelieveable that you will be with our LORD and Savior soon and without blemish, my soul rejoices at this and I LONG for the day when I will be there too. In this life, Grandma, you have been such a testimony to me of service to the LORD, your faith, deep faith in the LORD and His promises has made a deep impact on my heart and I want you to know that the LORD has and will continue to use your life on this earth, even after you are gone, to glorify His name.
I love you Grandma, the time spent with you these years is treasured deep in my heart - and no matter how excited I am for you to no longer be in pain, I will miss you so much.
Until that day-
Joyelle
I have so much treasured her friendship.
She has been on Dialysis, going three times a week, for the last month and a half or so, and while I was talking to her yesterday morning, she explained to me that she had made the decision to no longer continue with the procedure. Dialysis is meant to sustain her until she dies, and when she stops we were told it would be about 2 weeks before her organs failed.
I have been so relieved to know that she is finally done with hospitals, finally done with medications, finally done with this world and so ready to be with Jesus and peacefully resolved to leave. This sounds incredibly "out there" but I had a dream a while back that to me, symbolized exactly what I have been feeling concerning Grandmas procedures and consistant dependency on hospitals. She was standing on the waters edge, beautiful, clean, refreshing, purifying water; being held back by tubes and needles. And I am so excited that she is finally putting her feet in.
Instead of two weeks, we are looking at more like days. I wrote Grandma a letter, and I was originally going to send it to her, but as things are, it doesnt look like we have time. I called to read it to her this morning and she hasnt gotten out of bed yet. My mom said that she is already starting to fade. So with a heavy yet rejoicing heart I lift my hands, open and cut and thank you Father, for the life of Betty Meyer, 83, who has loved and served you with her life. In Japan for 38 years, faithfully with her husband, raising her 5 children - and continuing into her grandchildren; the service and depth of faith she has shown has so deeply impacted those around her, that the reality of her pending death will still be a shock, even though we know full well its coming.
Dear Grandma,
I was going to send this to you, but I dont think we have the time. Its hard to know exactly what to say, but I know there are things I would want you to hear from me before you go into glory. Oh that seems almost unbelieveable that you will be with our LORD and Savior soon and without blemish, my soul rejoices at this and I LONG for the day when I will be there too. In this life, Grandma, you have been such a testimony to me of service to the LORD, your faith, deep faith in the LORD and His promises has made a deep impact on my heart and I want you to know that the LORD has and will continue to use your life on this earth, even after you are gone, to glorify His name.
I love you Grandma, the time spent with you these years is treasured deep in my heart - and no matter how excited I am for you to no longer be in pain, I will miss you so much.
Until that day-
Joyelle
I just heard from Brooke and I am sorry for you and this sadness in your heart! Whenever I am faced with things like this I see clearly how we are not created to die.. it is so unnatural! Praise God for His Grace, Mercy, and love... we are so in need of Him. I was going to send your "wedding" present with the Jordans, but I will hang onto it... until I see you again. I am missing you and wishing I could see you and give you a giant hug and mug of warm coffee. With all my love...!
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