Hmm...
Weary, that is a good word. I was encouraged by that passage when Paul talks to the Corinthians about being hard pressed but not crushed. It often feels like there a lots of cloudy days, however we are not without our sunshine. Joy still seems to sit in my heart, in a deep quiet sense. I have often thought that joy is more of a contented kind of attitude as apposed to a bubbly upbeat thing.
Today, as morning came, an overwhelming groaning to be rid of sin did also. For me, the thought of being free of the every day struggles, things that often get overlooked until they are consuming, to be free of those things some day bring tension to my throat and tears to my eyes. And for those around me, to no longer watch people love their sin. I HATE that. I dont know if I have ever hated it as I do now.
At the same time, as much as there is in this world that could consume my heart and inable me entirely, there is Christ - and with Him there is PEACE. Such a contrast to what the world is made of, its so clear to me sometimes; a stark difference. Thankfulness has never run so deep, as much as there is struggle, there is even more to be wholly thankful for.
Today, as morning came, an overwhelming groaning to be rid of sin did also. For me, the thought of being free of the every day struggles, things that often get overlooked until they are consuming, to be free of those things some day bring tension to my throat and tears to my eyes. And for those around me, to no longer watch people love their sin. I HATE that. I dont know if I have ever hated it as I do now.
At the same time, as much as there is in this world that could consume my heart and inable me entirely, there is Christ - and with Him there is PEACE. Such a contrast to what the world is made of, its so clear to me sometimes; a stark difference. Thankfulness has never run so deep, as much as there is struggle, there is even more to be wholly thankful for.
I just love you sister! Thank you for this post, and for your honesty. I have not forgotten to write you, but it seems I've been consumed in mid-terms and la-la-la life at present. I am praying for you, and that we might walk the lonely miles in faith, and in that quiet, satisfying, deep kind of joy that often finds no ushering of the outward for its solace. Bless you.
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