Painting Frenzy
We are painting our house. And within the last week or so have done quite a lot of it. Its been a wonderful opportunity for the Lord to show me how selfish I often tend to be and expose some "crap" in my heart. Like when Im tired of painting, where my attitude goes. Where or who, and how I take it out on others. Pretty sucky actually, but good ultimately.
Last I talked to Hannah, she decided not to go to MWSB. Mostly because of money, and I think a big part because she is scared. She said she was afraid that she was kind of just jumping on my bandwagon, because it "worked for me it might work for her", she has been questioning a lot of her motives. All of it really took me off guard because days earlier she sent in her maltriculation fee, so now Ive been left to just pray. If the Lord wants her there, she will be there - no matter what kind of bs she tries to pull. At first it was incredibly discouraging though, to feel the weight of that and feel like I should have done something better. The Lord keeps reminding me that Hes the one that does things in His timing, no matter how much I act like I am. Which has also been good, but sucky.
Christa, I miss you. I was just thinking of some of the times that you and I talked about whatever, had tea, coffee, whatever. You and Micah walked me through so much of Rockys and my relationship. And it feels like Ive been reflecting on that lately and realizing more how much I value your friendship - for however long, as it comes and goes, please just know that you are appreciated.
Last I talked to Hannah, she decided not to go to MWSB. Mostly because of money, and I think a big part because she is scared. She said she was afraid that she was kind of just jumping on my bandwagon, because it "worked for me it might work for her", she has been questioning a lot of her motives. All of it really took me off guard because days earlier she sent in her maltriculation fee, so now Ive been left to just pray. If the Lord wants her there, she will be there - no matter what kind of bs she tries to pull. At first it was incredibly discouraging though, to feel the weight of that and feel like I should have done something better. The Lord keeps reminding me that Hes the one that does things in His timing, no matter how much I act like I am. Which has also been good, but sucky.
Christa, I miss you. I was just thinking of some of the times that you and I talked about whatever, had tea, coffee, whatever. You and Micah walked me through so much of Rockys and my relationship. And it feels like Ive been reflecting on that lately and realizing more how much I value your friendship - for however long, as it comes and goes, please just know that you are appreciated.
Ah... thanks so much - I needed to hear that - sometimes I wonder why I am here?? I will be praying for Hannah... you never know what God is up to... eh?
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