Humidity in the East

Living in the East Coast territories again has been different this time around, apart from the humidity. That hasnt changed. I feel like I have found for myself that God is the same no matter where I go which is possibly the most comforting thing I have ever discovered.
Life at home is taking a toll on my mind. Emotionally draining. Which frusterates me because I expect myself to be able to do and be more - to work more, make more money, make better use of myself to other people, not be worthless. I feel like that is the depth of most of my insecurity at this point. This morning I woke up frusterated and I felt the battle for my mind right away and as a result I have very little energy and absolutly zero strength of my own - which according to Paul in II Corinthians is exactly where I need to be. Regardless, I FEEL like I should be DOING more. What if I have just settled and this isnt what God wants me doing right now? What if Im missing it?
Im at no position to make any kind of life altering decisions, therfore I will refrain. Which is always a good indicator to me that my mind is not right.
Ive been finding a lot of photos while cleaning out grandmas house.

Grandpa and I used to sit like this, look outside

and eat coffee cakes. He would sit there every morning and whistle.