Flood by Jars of Clay
I have stowed away at the grandparents house in hopes of spending time with them, only to find them missing. Therefore, I am spending some much needed debrief time. "When Im falling, Im weak and Im dying, I need you to hold me, to keep me from drowning again"
Yesterday, I "re-got" the job at VisionQuest after much headache from them the first time. I wasnt thrilled to be honest. It surprised me how hesitant I was to just accept this job. There is always a sacrifice made, that wasnt the problem (though I wont be able to see Sarah which honestly makes me feel heavy) I felt an incredible amount of unrest about it - or any other option for that matter. Why would they hire me for a month? This morning I got up early and just talked it out with God, the hesitance I was feeling came from the thought that God may want me to trust Him to provide in another way, because thats what Ive been thinking up until this point. Realizing today, that this is the provision Ive asked for. A great job, which will provide the money for school - as soon as I came to that, PEACE.
How is that? That He directs like that, I wouldnt have come to Him and really seen His provision in this if I hadnt had such angst about it. Like Jeremiah.
Today is a catch up day - writing letters, cleaning, throwing things away, more cleaning. Im looking forward to the chance to get things out of the way.
I havent heard from Rocky in a while, and Im seeing how Ive grown since even a few weeks ago. Doubt ruled my mind, and now - I miss hearing from him, but no doubt. I know he is still thinking of me. It seems like I miss him more every day. Like I peak out, and cant imagine missing him more, then I wait 15 minutes. Its just being around him. Listening to him talk. When he gets in a talking mood, and works out his mind through his speech. I love that.
Yesterday, I "re-got" the job at VisionQuest after much headache from them the first time. I wasnt thrilled to be honest. It surprised me how hesitant I was to just accept this job. There is always a sacrifice made, that wasnt the problem (though I wont be able to see Sarah which honestly makes me feel heavy) I felt an incredible amount of unrest about it - or any other option for that matter. Why would they hire me for a month? This morning I got up early and just talked it out with God, the hesitance I was feeling came from the thought that God may want me to trust Him to provide in another way, because thats what Ive been thinking up until this point. Realizing today, that this is the provision Ive asked for. A great job, which will provide the money for school - as soon as I came to that, PEACE.
How is that? That He directs like that, I wouldnt have come to Him and really seen His provision in this if I hadnt had such angst about it. Like Jeremiah.
Today is a catch up day - writing letters, cleaning, throwing things away, more cleaning. Im looking forward to the chance to get things out of the way.
I havent heard from Rocky in a while, and Im seeing how Ive grown since even a few weeks ago. Doubt ruled my mind, and now - I miss hearing from him, but no doubt. I know he is still thinking of me. It seems like I miss him more every day. Like I peak out, and cant imagine missing him more, then I wait 15 minutes. Its just being around him. Listening to him talk. When he gets in a talking mood, and works out his mind through his speech. I love that.
"Carry me, Im just a dead man lying on the carpet, cant find a heartbeat. Make me breathe, I wanna be a new man, tired of the old one, Out with the old plan."
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