THIS week...

Well, the last week has been a journey, for sure. No baby yet - contrary to what I thought, and HOW I thought this would all work. However, I dont believe I would change it; the LORD has been teaching me patience, though I dont know if Ive gotten any "better" at being patient. Over and over the concept of "waiting on the LORD" has come up in my heart and mind. What does it mean to wait on the LORD in this time? Mulling over the different ways that I can learn contentment even in a time of great anticipation of something great. Ive had this analogy of climbing a mountain stuck in my head, which is something that Ive done before and understand. I know how it feels to be at the bottom and know that Ive got a long way to go, and how the middle stages feel, and how being at the top somehow makes it worth it and makes you forget the middle part. So Ive been running (or hiking) with this analogy in my pocket, in terms of labor and delivery. At different points this week I kept thinking its like having all your gear on, boots are tied, backpack on and buckled, and just waiting for the rain to stop so you can start hiking. Which has been harder for me than Ive thought it would be. A friend of mine reminded me that this whole process, the waiting included is part of the curse of the woman from the beginning. That there is a pain in the waiting, in false labor (or "pre-labor" they like to call it now) etc. My prayer is that no matter what is to come, no matter what this mountain looks like, and no matter the circumstances when we get to the top, that we would draw all our strength, and rely fully on Christ every step.